Dorawr's Own Creations (:

a view from when i was a 'lil girl.

2008-12-17T02:06:00.002+08:00

My Grandparents

I never got to know my real grandparents

They passed on before i could ever live

Being able to share a bond with people so special

Was something i never lived

Until my Mum, elder sister and I moved to Australia

Did i get that moment of a life time

It was a blessing from above

That didn't even cost a dime

Starting out in Australia

Was something so new

Pre-school was a blur

There was nothing much that i knew

Our first week going to a new church

Meant meeting alot of strangers

But there was just one old couple

That didnt make us feel like outsiders

They could tell we were new to the area

And that we were foreign

But that didn't make them belittle us

They instantly made us feel welcomed

We took an instant liking to them

We admired their kindness

They made us feel at home in th church

More and more, each time we attended Mass

Getting to know more about them each week

Meant them getting to know us more

They were more special than they seemed

There was just something they never saw

They were interested in knowing about our culture

But the one interesting thing that they had ever knwon

Was the fact that

I didn't have grandparents to call my own

It was then did they decide

To 'adopt' me and my sister as their grandkids

And my Mother as their own child

To love, to care for

And make memoried so sweet

The first time they held me in their arms

I felt a sense of belonging

Something i had never felt before

Something i didn't see coming,

Something i had been longing

They were always in the picture

In everything i did

Every Dance Competition, Every School Concert

They were there

And there's just more to it

They were my guardian angels

I call them Nana and Pop

They gave me hope

They supported me even when i would fail

Especially in times when i couldn't cope

My Pop Des

Was the coolest among all

He was always cheery and lively

And would never fail to make me smile

He nicknamed me 'Aggie'

And whenever we would greet goodbye

We would wriggle our index fingers

It was our special wave that would never die

My Nana Edna

She was the sweetest with that red hair

She was always baking goodies for me

Especially cakes on my Birthday each year

Both my Grandparents

Were always proud of me

There was nothing i did

That wasn't good enough for them

They accepted me as i was

Regardless of colour and race

They were so loving, caring and gracious

And they made me one of their own

Eight years spent in Australia

Was definitely full of sweet memories

Knowing and having MY Grandparents

Edna and Des

Now I'm back in Singapore

Without having a choice

A tragic incident happened awhile ago

That made me leave my Nana and Pop

How i miss them so dearly

I wish i could be by their side

To hold them so tightly

And tell them how much i love them

From deep down inside.

This is dedicated to my 'adopted' Grandparents in Australia

I wrote this for a writing competition, on th 27 August '08

but it didn't get submitted in the end.

So i just posted it here for all to read.

Hope you like it and enjoy reading it (:

doralyn marsh

2008-03-11T23:09:00.004+08:00

Maybe you were the right one.
But i was too angry to accept it.
I tried to reject your apologies.
But somehow, it just melted me.

I knew i loved you alot.
But i didnt know i'd love you this much.
Things just seem right being with you.
Like nothing bad matters, its true.

Maybe we've both had a good wake up call.
That made us appreciate each other more.
Everyone gets angry at their loved ones at times.
Including me, when you broke my heart before th ninth.

I can say ive learnt a thing or two.
I thought i would really hate you.
But who am i kidding.
you're my everything.

Life isnt so easy.
Everyone tends to be choosy.
But soul's still go on living.
Even if some dont have any meaning.

But i know now that i'm not alone.
I have you as my own.
And instead of just living as a loner.
I'm living with you, together.

11 March 08

" just to show you how much you mean to me,

even if i might not make any sense. I try ".

doralyn marsh (:

2008-02-16T12:00:00.003+08:00

I may not be the perfect one

I may not seem like i need someone

But you, you are my sunshine

I have no reasons to whine

Though our hearts arent connected

Im still antisipated

I want to be your everything

But is it too demanding?

I want to be the one you run to

When no once else understands you

I want to be the one you share each step with

Even if it means having to take risks

I'd lend my hand and shoulder any day

Just to keep you near, at bay

Here i am

Would you do the same?

Here i am

Trying to explain

Feelings,

Thats just more than words can say.

"you were wondering, & so here is the answer"

11 February 08

doralyn marsh(:

2008-02-07T18:06:00.000+08:00

ive regretted everything ive done.
i thought you were th one.
now my heart left wounded,
& th scars,
will never disappear.

trying to find a cure,
that can make me sure.
of myself, of my life.
& heal th pain inside of me,
that can somehow be repaired.

2007-12-02T12:58:00.001+08:00

My heart is for you,

& it beats as one.

I'l always be there for you,

especially when your down.

If your unhappy,

im unhappy too.

I'l save all my kisses for you.

& when life gets tough,

i'l share the pain with you.

Written By:

Doralyn Marsh

19.11.07 (:

2007-09-23T15:53:00.000+08:00

Untitled

It hurts when i breathe

Just a sense of exhals

Brings me exhaustion

Th feeling of breathing

Isnt breathing to live anymore

It is th heart being shredded into pieces

Though it erases all that ive loved for

Never will th memory fade

For i have promised devotion

When you kissed me

I thought that you loved me

No early signs of disses

My nights seemed no longer lonely

When you kissed me

My worries vanished

& th world just goes away

Th way you held me

I thought that you adored me

You are th one

But yet, life still hasnt begun

Love couldnt of gotten better

For it has potential of lasting forever

A lifetime to remember

Even further than december

With words left unsaid

May you find a way

To answer your questions

To why ive gone astray.

From here on

Till th world can turn back on us again

I bid goodbye

For you heart has probably died.

written by: doralyn marsh

-23.09.07

2007-09-23T15:34:00.000+08:00

Feelings Can't Be Explained

In your arms,

I feel th way you want me

When you hold me.

I can still recall th words u whispered

When you told me.

I wanna stay right in your arms

Forever till eternity.

I wanna wake up every morning to your sweet face.

Knowing that you are still mine.

In your eyes,

I can still see th look of th one

whom i love.

I see myself

Doing anything just to keep you

Even if it means dying for you.

written by; doralyn marsh

-22.09.07

2007-09-15T19:54:00.000+08:00

True Love

True Love sheds no boundries
Love isnt just saying "I LOVE YOU"
Love isnt hugging warmly
Nor is it passionate kissing too.

Love is deep within ones heart
Throught thick or thin
The love will never fade
Nor will it die within.

One way or better

Signs of affection

Is nothing to be ashamed of

Let no one hastily judge, or question.

Your own heart-beats

Only lie within you

Seek out your answers

But only with an open eye

Will it come to you.

By God that is King

Let thy show you the way

Step into his light

Quit denying & the play.

For True Love has no boundries

True Love is meant to be

For YOU & ME

Open your eyes

Take this future ride with me.

It is named "TRUE LOVE".

written by; doralyn marsh

-28.08.07

2007-09-15T19:38:00.000+08:00

My Heart is For You

I gave you my heart

To hold on to forever

To cherish it with love

& let it die never

Without you i am dead

Because living is you

If you were to die

I'd die with you too.

Without you i am only half of me

Im missing you when you're not next to me.

Baby, i just want you to know

You are my heart, my everything

My love, My precious

And when you have "no mood" just for me

I'd get suspicious.

Thinking the worst

I do not like

I start to cry

Till late at night

My eyes ball up

With veins so red

Wishing i could

Cry blood instead.

I conclude with this;

im in love with a boy

So dear to my heart

Holding on strong together

With a hopeful blessing

From God my father.

I LOVE HIM

I LOVE HIM;

So i gave him my heart

For him to keep

& hold on to forever.

Written by: doralyn marsh

-08.08.07

2007-09-14T23:23:00.000+08:00

The Decision

Ive got this aching longing inside of me

This anxious suspense that hurts me.

The will to just give up

Hope, persistence, wisdom, will

Everything.

Knowing you cant be by my side

I lose the sight in trying.

-written by: doralyn marsh

-th past is over: 29.05.07

2007-09-08T14:03:00.000+08:00

That Special Girl

I toss & turn

And yet i dont get much sleep

I'm restless night after night

Feeling things arent right

Knowing my life isnt complete.

My hopes resembling a see-saw

Though i know you're not to blame

Deep down inside

I Just want us to live the flame.

I know your secret past

The reasons to your your mourning

I'm sorry for ever doubting you

And making to myself useless warnings.

Get this in your head dear one

I will always be there for you

Beside you all the way

I'll share your dreams & sorrows

And take each step with you.

Now that i understand more

& that life isnt only about me

I'm truly & deeply sorry

My tears cry out with you

You dont have to worry baby.

Though she's still in your heart

I know she would've wanted it this way

She has blessed you with me from above

These are her doings, stop questioning

She's watching over you

& protecting you each day.

Take these words of mine

Into consideration

For it is real & is for you

And in loving memory of that other girl.

Who is & forever will be

our special guardian.

Created by: doralyn marsh

-07.09.07

2007-09-08T12:00:00.000+08:00

I'm Afraid

Though every day & night

I think of you

I always feel this

That i'm afraid to hold you

I wana hold you tight

So badly do i need you

By my side

'Till the very late at night

Tantrums, Tantrums

Ut's the little things

That makes you drum

What are you thinking?

Throw it away

Throw the past away

Throw all bad things

And leave it astray

For i am here

This is the future

Just wanting to hold you

Wanting to whisper "I LOVE YOU"

in your ear

But dont let it out another

For it's gona get stronger

The feelings inside

Can't challenge my anger

The urge to confess

But will it abide?

Or should i let it linger.

Can't you see?

Im afraid

Can't bare the rejection

It'll just add to the collection

'Cos you;

Just you my dear

Are the answers to my calling.

Created by: doralyn marsh

-03.09.07

2007-09-08T11:54:00.000+08:00

The Secret

Life is full of mystery

So says history.

If i was to react right

Things will work well, it just might

If i was to assume right

Your answer is there

Right infront of you to accept & share.

If i was to think right

Then just grab her

She is the key

Face the light.

If i have failed to judge

My sorrows lie within

Leaving a scar of grudge

Although it fades, never will it disappear.

Life is full of mystery

So what more can i say?

Questions are never fully complete

'Till the wonderer has defeat.

Created by: doralyn marsh

-01.09.07